Prayer is a major part of my daily spiritual practice, and I've gotten to the point where my first thought upon waking automatically is "Hi God!" Except when the Dobies wake me up too early, then it's more like "Goddammit." But the Dobies are with their Dad right now (we share custody), so this Sunday morning I lounged and luxuriated in bed, saying my prayers and asking for guidance.
You know how sometimes a song randomly pops into your brain and you're certain it's some kind of sign or theme you'd be wise to heed? Laying in bed this morning I heard Peter Frampton's lyrics, Oh won't you show me the way... Quite apropos!
Life continues to be a long strange trip of faith-building for me. Confusion abounds; recently I've made difficult but necessary choices; and unanswered questions fly through my brain morning, noon and night. I'm diligent about asking for guidance and fairly vigilant, I think, when it comes to paying attention.
So this morning I asked for the umpteenth time, "What am I supposed to do next?"
Got up. Put on bathrobe. Bathroom. Then the computer to check Facebook. The very first words I read were a comment on my status yesterday. My friend Stephanie wrote, "Write a book. I'm serious. I'd read it."
To which I burst out laughing! Could the answer be any clearer? And how perfectly aligned with this month's Full Moon message: It's time to claim your true gifts, whatever it takes. That might mean turning yourself inside out, to heal from psychic-emotional wounds that prevent you from stepping into creative power.
How this will help my income I don't know, but I guess at this point that isn't my business. My business is to do the work I'm clearly being called to do. As my friend Tom says, "God pays for what God orders." So you know what? I'm going to do it. I am going to carve out time every week to write. It's been a long time coming -- years of writer's retreats and blogging and procrastinating and encouragement from friends and family.
What I know beyond a shadow of a doubt is that it doesn't matter what I think or feel or fear. I asked for an answer and it could not have come any more quickly or clearly! I'm fairly sure I know what the book is going to be about -- Women at Rest -- but I'm also open. And that is the best way for me to be.
Absolutely. Positively. Cool. I'll read it too. I can't wait! Peace, love, blessings, joy, and more, O
Posted by: Olivia | Sunday, November 08, 2009 at 04:49 PM
You could let the Holy One write the book through you. Everyday at the same time, sit at the computer and take dictation. Start by asking the question: Okay,God, what do you want people to know today? Trust what you get. It'll be awesome!
Posted by: Kathryn Knoll | Sunday, November 08, 2009 at 07:50 PM
I would read it!
Posted by: Samosas for one | Monday, November 09, 2009 at 12:33 AM
Oh Carla, you have so many amazing gifts. I'm thrilled that you are making a commitment to your writing. Stephanie, thanks for letting God speak through you.
Posted by: Joyce Blazek | Monday, November 09, 2009 at 06:57 AM
I'll read it too!
Yay for clear messages!
Posted by: penny | Monday, November 09, 2009 at 08:33 PM
Carla, I am new to your blog, but I truly enjoy how you present your thoughts and feelings. Write the book!
Posted by: Ragen | Saturday, November 14, 2009 at 04:04 AM
Carla, you are one amazing human being. The fact that you are now willing to share more of you in a more-formal setting--a book--is a great joy for me to learn of this morning.
I can't wait.
Posted by: Rick | Sunday, November 22, 2009 at 02:37 AM
Hi, Carla,
It's Thanksgiving day and I'm procrastinating about making the oyster casserole. Funny you wrote this at the beginning of November, National Novel Writing Month. I write a "book" every year and it's awesome. www.nanowrimo.org I'd say keep the faith but it's clear that you already do. (Taos) Emmy
Posted by: Emmy | Thursday, November 26, 2009 at 08:29 AM
It's good to check in here again, Carla! I say "Go for it" with the book. I think when we get a calling to do something, no matter how outlandish it may seem at first, that it is the very thing we are supposed to follow.
Posted by: Jane Rourke | Wednesday, December 02, 2009 at 09:46 AM
Hi Carla! I haven't been around in a while but it's always nice to come back! Many years ago, I had this strong message from God/Universe that I was supposed to write a book. Of course I ignored it because I had no clue how to write or what I was even supposed to write about. Really, it was laughable! Fast forward now. I do know what I need to write about and share with the world. I've even started playing around with some of the rough outline. Never in my whole life have I ever received a similar shove from the Universe like my call to write. I hope you listen to your callings too. I would definitely read your book!
Posted by: Jane Rourke | Wednesday, December 02, 2009 at 09:47 AM