The day started poorly. I discovered water damage in my basement ceiling, and right away I knew it was because I've soaked the front porch watering the front yard and there's a leak somewhere underneath. To say I felt like a nincompoop (I knew better than to get the front porch so wet) is a gross understatement. But I chose not to wallow in self-flagellation too long, so after I took this photo (part of my 365 Days self-portrait project) I moved into action -- I swallowed my pride and called my favorite handyman, my friend Bill Tierney of The Blisstrz. Within an hour he and another friend had ripped out the damaged ceiling. It's well on its way to being fixed and I got to spend time with two of my favorite guys!
Then a while later . . . I locked myself out of my house! The plus side of that smart move is I got to see Bill again, since he has a key. Thank God I'm not trying to impress anyone, 'cuz that boat has sailed far, far away!
Also on the plus side: A dream I've had for nearly 20 years is slated to come true this weekend. I'm so stoked about this weekend I hope I can sleep tonight!
I also had an hour-long spiritual direction session with Sister Cathy.
A few weeks ago I decided I'd licked my wounds long enough and was done grieving my divorce. What has opened up and happened since making that decision continues to blow my socks off! This summer is unfolding as one of the most joyful, fun, peaceful times of my entire life. I am loving being single and romancing my relationship with myself. I am loving discovering who I am -- what new stuff I like, what old stuff I like but had set aside. And music! I'm listening to music I love again!
A year ago I wouldn't have believed it could ever be possible again, but today -- aside from missing my boy Elliott (I have accepted I will always miss him) -- my life and spirit are blooming and feel absolutely fantastic. :)
What a beautiful post Carla! Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us (even with it's moments of being locked out and leaky ceilings. :) Shine on girl! And have a BLAST this weekend!!!!
Posted by: monique | Saturday, June 28, 2008 at 05:04 PM
I hate to intrude...but what is happening this weekend? I trust you will share when you are ready. I just got a box full of candles yesterday. What a treat for my world. Thanks, lovey. Cuz
Posted by: Cousin Christine | Saturday, June 28, 2008 at 06:28 PM
Glad things didnt cause too much pain in your life this weekend
Posted by: Tina | Saturday, June 28, 2008 at 08:59 PM
What a wonderful piece and wonderful attitude - you are an inspiration!!!
Posted by: Patricia | Sunday, June 29, 2008 at 11:02 AM
I LOVE this photography of you, you sexy thing! I'm looking forward to hearing how your weekend in Seattle was.
Posted by: Lisa | Sunday, June 29, 2008 at 01:57 PM
See, I think this is the what the world needs most, right now. People who are more than okay with themselves. With all the unstable happenings around the world, the more of us who can stay anchored no matter what happens, this is what is needed. We have all watched you shine and your light get brighter and brighter. Hey why shouldn't you ride out on the back of a motorcycle in a gay pride parade or any other kind of a pride parade? When you love and honor and respect yourself for who you are, the world is in a much better place than if you were tentativly play acting your part. Ride on!
Posted by: Kathryn Knoll | Monday, June 30, 2008 at 07:11 AM