Today's word: Breathe
I'm doing something I haven't done in ages: laying down -- resting -- during daylight hours. I'm beat, physically worn out, mentally exhausted and not the least bit surprised I've come down with a nasty cold. This was zena moon's sixth holiday season and while not our busiest December ever, it's the last December I push myself so hard.
The toll on my mind, body and spirit has been expensive. I'm learning what my limits are -- mentally and physically -- through trial and error. I'm learning and discovering what I need to do in order care for myself, and how that changes day by day, month by month, year by year. What worked beautifully last year may not (has not) this year. My job is to accept and adjust.
Reading Liz's post today calmed and soothed me. I followed her example and lit a healing candle. I read the quote by Mother Teresa with fresh eyes:
The most important medicine
is tender love and care.
For the first time I realized TLC can come from within. It can be how I treat myself today. My medicine.
This is a hard time of year, period. Such are my own self-generated stressors I can't even "go there" and write more about it. I don't need to. We all know it. We all feel it. God knows it doesn't need more attention.
So here I am, lying on the couch in a quiet house. Bryon took Elliott and Lucy to work, and Silas is home with me. Something I read recently that really hit home was "Simplicity fosters serenity." My only must-do's are:
Soon I will shower and take Silas to the dog park. Then I will rest. Later I will wrap Christmas presents. Then I will rest. We'll have leftovers for dinner and I will go to bed early tonight. Are there a hundred other things my brain tells me I should accomplish before my parents arrive tomorrow? Yes. Some will get done, some won't. The most important thing about Christmas is togetherness and love -- not whether my sliding glass door is clean. And that's really about all I know today.
Breathe.
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