Today begins Week 2 of Finding Water and I haven't finished Week 1 yet! Mildred my Inner Taskmistress has a few stern things to say about this, and my reply to her is, "Dear Mildred, we are into progress -- not perfection." The photo was taken during my first Artist's Date (a Friday roadtrip to Bellingham).
Today was a full, filling day.
I am constantly having to pivot to the positive, framing my experience into one of choice, God's will and adventure rather than victimhood. This is supreme self-care.
I made amends to my husband for lashing out at him the last two days. I get scared and you know who scares me? *ME*! Hence pivoting to the positive and consciously avoiding emotionally flamboyant language. I am soooooo done being a drama queen (I hope). :) Being emotionally stable and reliable for myself is new behavior on my part that feels extremely unnatural! But boy is it comforting and safe. I am learning what it means to really be here for myself. To serve as my own stability. It totally rocks.
I created two new candles I am VERY excited about! I'll announce them and add them to zenamoon.com as soon as I choose the perfect quotes for them. Oh, they're fantastic! One is a special surprise for someone in our bloggy community. :)
I've decided to treat myself to a new camera! Pretty sure I'm going with the Canon Digital Rebel XT. Many of my favorite Flickr photographers who take the types of photos I want to take use this camera. Either that or a Nikon D70. If you have feedback on either, I'd love to hear it.
Earlier today I spoke my truth and aired my fears and cried and laughed in front of other women and then I let myself be hugged and receive solace. I am grateful I can let myself sink into others' arms, faith, strength and love -- in person and here. To everyone who has commented or simply stopped by and offered a silent blessing, thank you! You rock.
Tomorrow I hope to share something that happened today on Women at Rest. I am awakening to new levels of surrender and serenity as I follow the trail of breadcrumbs my Higher Power is leading me with. And keep letting go of the monkey bar, as Patti Digh so eloquently wrote about here. (Thanks for pointing me to your article, Patti!)
Just surrender to the cycle of things.
Give yourself to the waves of the Great Change,
and when it is time to go, then simply go,
Without any unnecessary fuss.
How did you reach outside your comfort zone this week?
See above. :)