zena musings

2nd Chakra Resuscitation

This is BY FAR the most uncharacteristic self-portrait I've taken so far in the 365 Days project. Truthfully I'm slightly scandalized at myself! I'm not comfortable showing my body at all. I rarely even wear fitted shirts. In real life you'll usually see me in baggy sweatshirts or big T-shirts.

In real life this is something I'm ever so slowly changing. Last year I bought some pretty girly tops with plunging necklines. Once in a great while I even wear one. :)

Next month (April 14 in fact) marks the end of my promise not to date for one full year after splitting up with my ex-husband. As the one-year mark draws near and my desire to explore connections with new people heats up, I've affectionately dubbed this promise my "house arrest." This cracks me up. :) For reasons I won't go into, it's very important for me to faithfully honor my commitment to myself and if I go out on a date a week or two before April 14 I've decided that's OK. As long as I make it to April, it's OK in my book.

I've already taken baby steps towards the next phase of my new life: I joined Match.com. I posted a profile. I'm corresponding with some amazing, beautiful women who interest me. (I made a big dramatic coming out fuss in my 20s, now it's enough to say that my sexuality has aways been fluid and with the exception of Clive Owen and George Clooney I'm not interested in men beyond friends and this has been my truth for a long time.)  I've even connected with someone I know I'd like to meet in person -- she's in another city, but at least she's on the west coast too.

I'm already enjoying the fun of this! My sexuality has been dead a long, long time and I'm so happy it's beginning to come alive again. I wasn't sure it ever would. I guess that's what this photo is about.

Nurturing my sexuality. Daring to reveal myself a little more. Exploring who I am today. It's so unlike the me I've been, but maybe it's part of the me I'm becoming.

P.S. I'm very, very curious to see how my sexuality will fuel my creativity and spirituality. I'm very, very curious what else I'll be daring enough to do!

October is National Breast Cancer Awareness Month

We all know what to do, so let's do what we can!

• Get a mammogram at least every other year after age 40
• Do self-exams monthly (I'm lax about this but I did one today!)
• Give tangible, practical support to women with breast cancer
• Remind the men in your life that men get breast cancer too

For lots more info, visit the official National Breast Cancer Awareness Month website.

Support Breast Cancer Research
A portion of all zena moon sales in October will be donated to Breast Friends.

Also, did you know we offer a pink cancer survival candle? Available scented or unscented, the quote on the label reads:

Cancer is so limited . . . It cannot
cripple love, shatter hope, corrode faith,
destroy confidence, kill friendships,
shut out memories, silence courage,
invade the soul, or conquer the spirit.